To my first-trimester self,
Remember when you were so excited to be pregnant? When those two little lines appeared, it was as though they marked the end of one kind life and the beginning of another. Remember all the beautiful things about being pregnant you couldn't wait for? I know they are hard to keep in sight, now that all your days are filled with exhaustion and nausea. The beauty of creating life seems so much less glamorous than you had hoped. Remember that person who said "pregnancy glow" was actually just sweat from throwing up? I know that feels a lot closer to the truth.
I know how you feel -- you wanted to be pregnant so badly. You feel so lucky that it happened so easily when for others, it doesn't. And yet you spend your days sad you're not enjoying it. That it's not the experience you were hoping for.
So I wanted to tell you it's ok. All those bad things will go away and pregnancy will be fun. The exhaustion will lift, the nausea will disappear and you will love having that belly every bit as much as you hoped. And even though other discomforts will come and go, something amazing will happen: you will start to feel that little being inside you moving around, and you will start to imagine him or her joining your life.
So don't feel bad if you're not having fun right now or if it's hard to remember why you ever thought this was a good idea. It gets so, so much better.
Sincerely, Your 36 week self.
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